national day celebration!

used to celebrate national day in school. but now school doesn’t celebrate anymore. hahaha.

same tee-shirt for the day! LOL

no interest

skipped a number of lectures and lessons last few weeks. I didn’t know what I’m doing. in fact I didn’t realise until my friend actually asked why am I skipping so many lessons this sem.

actually I don’t really know the reason. after one year of studying this course, I have come to realise that I show no interest in this course at all. maybe a bit for last year. but this year, I’m in a total lost. didn’t pay attention during lessons at all. i thought I would show more interest this year cause I kinda be able to study business(like finally). but no, I don’t even think I like business.

hope I don’t lose interest any further if not I’m gonna retain or retake some
modules for sure. mst in 2weeks but lucky only 2.

but fk those proj works. I used to be very enthu about proj works but this time,no. I don’t know why. whenever we are discussing, I just can’t be bothered to join in the discussion. and I don’t know what they are talking. I felt like I let my group members down. I felt so laid back. so carefree. damn.. there are like 4 proj and we only completed 1. on the process on the 2nd one but we are running out of time. cause there is one major proj which we were told to start on week 6. it’s already week 7.

I know it’s already too late but I’ve come to realise poly isn’t really suitable for me. and I’m quite sure i will never work as a programmer(the course I’m in now) when I grad. whenever I thought about this. I just just felt discouraged and loses my interest for my studies and just neglect everything.

what’s wrong with me =(

back to school again

monday waiting for tuesday, tuesday waiting for wednesday, wednesday waiting for thursday, thursday waiting for friday… … … *enjoy enjoy*

apparently for my timetable, mon and tues are killer man! loooong days. damn jia lat!

actually school is sucha waste of time for me. because 3/4 of the time i was NOT listening. laughing all the way with this friend of mine who seems to have the same sense of humor as me.

go home face-ache, stomachache.

ok i’m kidding. not so serious, but yea, almost.

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accepting people who aren’t very accepting is difficult. thanks those who had accepted me. though i know not many did. but to hell who didn’t =|

yea i know, i’m anti-social, quiet, not friendly, don’t know how to express myself very well. totally not those damn-high-that-anyone-can-be-my-friend kinda person. so i always have this problem of making new friends. i’d go complete silence with the person i’m not close at all. *awkward*

anyway, i’ve come to accept what people think of me. there are millions and millions of people in this world and everyone of them has got their own perspectives and point of view. not say millions, even if there are only 10 people, there are ALREADY 10 different characteristics and viewpoints. i can’t possibly change myself for them. i’m not any superhero.

don’t say i haven’t tried. yes i tried being damn high in school before, but that’s so not me and i’m so tired at the end of the day. and the truth is, i’m not happy at all. who don’t wanna be high, supa friendly and all? this is not a matter of want or not, it is about whether you CAN OR NOT.

too high, people find you annoying. too emo and quiet, people find you unfriendly and cold. damn f-ing irritating.

so this is the time that sets a difference to those who remain in your remaining years and those who don’t.

true confidence is knowing, deep down inside, that you don’t need to lean on ANYONE in order to fall flat on your back.

would you rather be a cloud that floats on its own, or would you rather be the sky that harmonize everyone?

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think i will suffer from depression sooner or later.

tough being myself

have alot to complain, just don’t know where to start.

-end

F off loser

when you put one person down, just because you know you can never get him/her.

how true.

does that happen to you sometimes? especially the opposite sex. loser-ish life. FYL

working experience

17/4/2010 marked the last day working for CIBA vision. overall feedback, wasn’t too good. the job was relaxing. but i find it TOO relaxing.

basically i work as the ambassador of CIBA, asking shoppers to go for eye check. the work for this is stressful can. still remembered first time i work, it was at IMM the spectacle hut. couldn’t get anyone to do. so i decided to write “FREE EYE CHECK” on a piece of paper, decorated a little. but the staffs working not happy. say not professional. go complain to in-charge _|_

so after that, decided to just stand outside the shop for whole freaking 8hours, DOING NOTHING. it was plain bored. ya actually i could get ZERO people to do the eye check. so can already feel that the shop staffs weren’t very satisfied. so everytime had to ask people for their ICs so i can “cheat” and fill in the forms myself =/

so THANKS TO THOSE WHO GAVE ME THEIR ICs. FOR TRUSTING ME =)

yup. so now i’m jobless -.- have to spend wisely already. whenever i got my pay, in a week or 2, the money’s gone. don’t even know where and what i spent on.

waiting for the company to recommend me another job. hopefully they do and hope that it will be something much more fun and interesting than this.

worked for Disney On Ice for 2 weekends on march i think. it was quite fun. basically to pump balloons and give out flyers.  meeting different people from different backgrounds, ranging from students to housewives. working is much more fun when there are more people who are friendly. =) enjoyed working for the 2 weekends and the pay is like $9.50/hr la. they told me $7.50. generous disney.

ok that’s all for today. shall blog another time, ciao